Archive for SEEKERS DOOR Psychic Development School
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Looking at my writing
You see pieces of me
Honest expressions
Of my own self
Not sick but broken
This fractured mind and
Twisted soul without hope
Constructing a reality
From conflicting fantasies
Why was I born
To bear such burdens
My empathy....my suffering
Anger and pain......my salvation
Descending into madness
Ascending from the cave
The forms are all nameless
No souls left to save
(*this one is a work in progress)
Shadows of your presence
Echoes of your voice
I'm haunted everyday
I feel everything
You feel nothing
My pain thrown in my face
Meaningless.......breathing
What was I to you
A joke......pitiful fool
Gave it my all
Too blind to see
Why this agony
F*cking despair
Discarded like trash
I can't go on.......
Like before
Before you...before this
Madness......
Sinking....falling into nothing
F*ck it..f*ck this.....
F*ck you
My head is pounding
My heart is bleeding
Hating...missing
Losing...you
Craving...crawling
At your feet
Did my heart squish easily
Beneath your shoe?
I'm not a poet
Just angry
Once a woman
Now this
B*tch
Spiteful...Seething
Scorned
Manipulations
Aggravations
Lies
Have corrupted
My safe house
My haven
My peace
That was you
Why did u bother?
Holding on in desperation
To a reality that never existed
Losing grip with sanity
Grasping at this fantasy
My obsession is addiction
To you...to us....to what?
The f*cking bullsh*t
Past conjuring images
Emotions in my mind
I saw you there
Laughing
How the f*ck
Did this happen?
Confusion blurs my vision
Crashing into the walls
I built to keep everyone out
Falling
As you stand in the doorway
I somehow left open for you
Laughing
My soul cut in two
My heart frozen
That special place
Inside
My secret self
Revealed
Only to you.....
I left the knife in
The wound still bleeds....
Only it doesn't hurt anymore
Until I try to take it out.......
Being half alive isn't so bad
Once you get used to it....
Tell me...
How does it feel
to you? ~Trish
*I'm mostly over this phase now--
I put these hgere to show how I've grown spiritually---lol--if its inappropriate let me know---I edited them as best I could...
Celtic Vision
Posts!
The realness of your words mirrors how many of us feel.
